OUR game against Hyde was an eye opener for us and a hurtful day for everyone at the football club.

We started brightly and it was good to see Ryan Bowman on the score sheet.

Yet as the game progressed he was probably the only one of the team to come out with any credit. We took our foot off the gas and let them boss us.

My gesture to help get people into the youth game on Tuesday was purely that.

I will always do what I feel is right as Club Captain off the field, regardless of what has happened on the field. I just wanted the fans to know we are all in this together through the good and bad times.

The youth team produced an exciting second half comeback, losing 5-3. It was a good experience for them and I was pleased with the fans that came to back them.

I feel sorry for any supporter who travels to watch us play and sees us put in a shocking performance.

It hurts.

It hurts every day until it gets put right with a win. It affects you personally, everyone around you and more importantly those who care about you.

The management team put on a great week for us to put things right.

We watched the DVD of the Hyde game, a few home truths were told and we were told where to improve. There is no hiding place when watching yourself play.

The camera never lies yet I always know what’s coming. I’ve already replayed it over and over in my head over the weekend; brutal honesty is the best way.

We worked hard at defending as a team and as individuals.

We were put into two teams one day and everything we did was competitive. You have to thrive on the pressure and everyone was at their maximum.

I love winning and was pleased to be on the winning team, it hurt for the losers but that’s how it should be.

It set us up into a buoyant mood travelling to Dartford on Friday. We trained at a good facility nearby and then proceeded to the hotel.

It’s important to be professional wherever we go and prepare the same way. It is a long day of travelling and team morale is just as important.

A tradition at football clubs is for new signings to sing on the away trips. This being the first away trip in a hotel meant there were a lot of people up for auditions.

It’s a nervous time for the new boys and even Simon ‘Clucas’ Cowell was there to judge us.

Chris Carruthers brought his guitar for the trip and teamed up with me and Tom Nicholls for the Oasis comeback tour. We sang ‘Wonderwall’ and it went down a storm.

Unpredictably the encore was to be suddenly stopped with the arrival of ‘Bob’ Marley Watkins and Ryan Bowman. They can’t share washing up liquid let alone a microphone!

There were people checking out of the hotel it was that bad!